prolog

there r many people in this Earth who do sooo many things in their life n die without being noticed. there r these people too who do nothing n r always circled by lime-light. i place myself on d second list.
when i was a child, i used to stay with my grand-parents n uncle-aunts. whenever my mom used to thrash me for not swallowing d food pushed into my mouth by her, my grandma chased her crazy. that made me feel like a princess. i was d attention of all for i m d eldest daughter of my grand-parents' eldest son; loved by all (obvious) n pampered to d extend of infinity, which turned me into a spoiled-brat !! since then i suffer from superiority complex. since then m an attention-seeker. so much i got engrossed in my thoughts that i tear d world apart if i see anyone neglecting me. with growing age, my possessiveness for my close friends n relatives grew. now i m possessive bout my husband even, so much so that i can bite d one with whom i see him talking to/bout surpassing me.
earlier i was not concerned bout my appearance, though i knew my eyes r beautiful(people praise my eyes a lot, since i was a kid). i thought i look ugly. i was very slim, sort of malnourished figure i had(but i was quite strong internally), accompanied with big front teeth. boys started proposing me since i was in Std VII n i wondered why they do so(i was not aware of my beauty then) !! i used to dress horribly !! d dresses i wore were not bad, only they did not fit well because of my physical structure. n again i wondered how could those boys fall for me !! had they gone out of their minds or had they lost their eyes ??!!
much later, when i went to college i changed my hair-cut, from back-length to small-steps. that was in 1st semester of my college. one of my uncles got married then. few days later d photographs were handed to us n that was a big turning point in my life. i did not believe that was me !! i looked so gorgeous with that hair-cut, in a green south-Indian sari.. i started liking my looks. then i realized why boys fall for me. i did not believe i m so beautiful n attractive. that went into my head. my attitude increased, rather changed. i started neglecting d world n did not notice who was noticing me. (earlier i used to notice each single guy who noticed me.)
oh God !! that was what i never wanted myself to b !! i did nothing n found myself at d centers of hostel gossips. i enclosed myself in my bed maximum time, but people talked bout me more. God knows what went wrong !! my attitude, i heard later. my attitude was so high that i became not-reachable n non-approachable to many. i kept my secrets to myself n noticed that people r getting more n more curious bout me. so much so that they made up their own imaginary stories !! n yes, d biggest talk bout me was bout my boy-friend !! according to my hostel-matron, each boy i talked to was my boy-friend. so many boy-friends i had !! they said that i m a big flirt !! lolz !!
guess what, my marriage got a lot of lime-light. this time d center of attention was not me.. he was my husband !! everyone wanted to know which boy i got married to. to their surprise, he was none of d ones i talked to n hanged around with.
still people talk bout me, even after d completion of one year of my marriage. but i have lost interest in all these. i have become a complete home-maker, in His(abhishek) divine service.